Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Everyone says "absence makes the heart grow fonder". But everyone that says that is just another human being looking for a new way to make money or make you feel better, so they come up with good quotes that make people cry, and smile, and laugh; when really what they write means absolutely nothing to them and they feel not the least bit of emotions for what they are writing about. See, in reality absence doesn’t make the heart grow fonder, absence makes the heart lonely; and sad. Sure you wont ever forget a smile, or the things he told you before he left, or that he held your hand when you needed him to. But what about the sound of his voice? Or the feeling you got when he was wrapped up in your arms, Sure you remember that nothing in the world made you feel the way he could, but can you actually remember that feeling? You wake up everyday feeling like the only enemy you have in the world is the day itself. Everyday is potentially another day closer to him, and yet everyday is also another day without him. Only X more days of this torture until he MAYBE comes back, when really only X more days until nothing. And then you think, why am i even doing this? What am i waiting for? For him to tell me he loves me but we cant be together? For another goodbye? For another set of lonely months when the only way i can sleep is to cry myself to sleep and pretend like im happy with the way things are? And then after that, you get angry with that person because they’re gone and they left you. You hate the world for taking him away, and you hate him for letting the world take him away. And so you get angry with yourself for feeling like you did and hating them. You hate yourself for hating him. And you cry yourself to sleep because you cant remember what his voice sounds like or what he smells like, or the feeling you got when he said, “I love you.”And then you remember the reason you’re waiting in the first place. And you accept that you’re willing to wait alone, and sleep alone, and smile alone; even if you cant be together right now. you wont give up because they’re a part of you and you cant just let that part of you go. That’s when you realize there’s no turning back now, and youre stuck with the lonely days, and the sleepless nights. And you realize that none of that matters anymore. Because he’s worth it, and he will always be worth it. And that you’d live everyday alone in the pouring rain for him. That not pain, or fear, or even loneliness can keep him from you. Thats when you realise its all worth it and whatever happens…friendship or Romance again…..he is worth all the pain and heartache…because he is the man who makes you smile and laugh….and that is worth everything.


- Tema mea la engleza pe baza proverbului "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." inseamna "Ochii care nu se vad, se uita."
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